The lovely mementis
has completed her EPIC PROJECT
to rec a long fic (mostly a minimum of 10K) every day for a whole year. Her recs are multi-fandom – I’ve found myself reading all sorts of things that I never would have done otherwise – and they’re always thoughtful, wholehearted and entertaining to read in themselves, the kind of thing that makes you really happy to be in a fannish community.
As a spin-off she has bookmarked a number of stories that she didn’t get to rec during the project and has challenged others to write their own recs which she’ll then link. She’s called it Stories for Reading and Sharing with Friends
So, this is a contribution from me. A story I love, have read multiple times and would like to share with my friends.
Paian: Pars Pro Toto
(Jack/Daniel | NC-17 | 9,788 words)
Jack finds out what Daniel's been doing on his trips out of town.
I was introduced to Paian’s Jack/Daniel fic through Mementis’ 365 recs and I am eternally grateful to her for it. I hesitate to say that Paian’s J/D stories are the best slash fics I’ve ever read or my favorite slash fics, because picking favorites seems silly and it’s only ever true until your next favorite comes along, but she’s the first fanfic writer that I’ve thought: I want to write exactly like this. I want to write dialogue, characterization, sex, love, relationships, dynamics between characters exactly
It’s hard for me to unpick how she actually does what she does, and I think this fic is a really good example of it, but I’ll try.
So, there is the assumption that they are both heterosexual and therefore the assumption of unrequited love, which is made worse by the external pressures of their work, sense of duty, the military etc. Daniel fucks callboys to let off steam and to numb himself emotionally. Jack finds out through a guy who is “in one of the businesses that radiates out from the business.” This leads to Jack offering himself as a replacement to the callboys – no-strings-attached, get-your-rocks-off in a safe and secure environment. Except for the very basic barrier of: the EPIC LOVE.
I love that the declarations of love right at the start aren’t actually a panacea, an “Okay, now we can fuck and live happily ever after.” Being in love is
the problem. It’s dealt with beautifully. I love the extended dialogue that precedes the sex, the negotiation that takes place between them.
The sex itself is brain-meltingly hot. After years of conditioning himself against the idea of having Jack, or rather being had by Jack, Daniel can’t really deal with intimacy, and yet it is such an intimate and erotic scene.
I think possibly my favorite characterization line in the fic, just for its perfect simplicity is when Jack responds to Daniel’s question about why he’s taking everything so well with: "I don't wig out over surprises. I was surprised. I'm over it."